I’ve often wondered, why in recovery after years of better living through chemistry, my immune system went wonky and I became ill more often, and various manifestations of auto-immune disorder phenomena developed. My instinct was that since my single coping system was removed that my body was making a grand readjustment to what should or could eventually be my biological design. Years were spent pushing down trauma and anger (because we’re taught they are ugly and should be suppressed) and hence the body’s response was pushed down also. They came back tenfold in the absence of medication. The following video is a clear-minded position on the affects of the struggle between competing instincts, attachment and biology. It speaks specifically to a lifelong pattern of attachments to toxic people and situations and how that has impacted my life/health. It goes a long way towards explaining how I’ve found myself stuck in patterns or grooves. I’m simply repeating my childhood (and this could lend a biological component to Freudian theory).