I don’t know why vaporwave, or in this case slushwave, has captured so much of the zeitgeist of these early morning hours. It’s something to do with the whole geo-political skance, as further mutated by the original lockdown from Covid-19, but it’s bigger than that. It’s lasting now beyond what I’d normally just call a phase. It seems just right. It’s just compelling enough, yet doesn’t demand 100 percent engagement. It’s good enough to be able to sit in it 100 percent, but doesn’t require it. Does that make sense? It just seems perfect for the Age of Distraction. You can dip out as any distraction takes you, and then dip back in without having felt you really missed anything. It’s more than Musak, but less than… necessary. At least for me. It’s a musical commodity for the Attention Economy in The Age of Distraction. Whatever that means… I’m not going to draw lines around that phrase just yet, but I’ll note that I coined it.

I don’t want to be up. I haven’t really been sleeping though so why bother turning out the lights and rolling over? I’ll just run with it. We’re on a deadline for work too so there is money to be made for a diligent person. Diligence wouldn’t really describe me but where money is concerned the deadline works. It’s going to be slow soon so this is really the only chance to stack the coin and fill the bags. This is it, until at least January. Why waste that opportunity? I can’t afford to waste it, actually so I’ll sweat through this one and then pass out. The next few months after this are going to be a drag. It’s the sweep-up after nearly 3 years of dodgy business. It will be the re-building spell for whatever comes next, whatever that may be. I’m not going to make and predictions. There is a lot of uncertainty about and it’s not just me, or the company I work for, or the people around me. I’m not even going to guess. I’d be a fool to pretend I know.

I just don’t know. It’s as simple as that. I may or may not sleep. I’m going to get up. I’m going to work. I’m going to employ my experience in what I’ve come to know as best practices. I’m going to be open to the idea that there may be brand new best practices. I’m going to try to change where possible. Then I’m going to come home and go to sleep.

Or not. I may not sleep. That seems to be beyond my control.

I can choose what music to put on at 5:30 in the morning.

Selah.