The love affair is back on. Renewed so to speak. Karlheinz has charmed me back into the fold. So what is it about Mantra that did it? It’s got to be more than that it isn’t Stimmung, which rendered me thoughtless and nearly mute. No, it’s… Well, I don’t know what it is. Sometimes though the music has to be angular to break through the surface tension of the psychic current that holds me in it’s clutches. Mantra is repetitive and demanding and angular. It’s sharp but disciplined and somehow there’s peace in that discipline. I can’t explain it.

It’s back to work tomorrow though. I can’t say if the extra time off did what I needed it to do. I think it did but with no clear goals at the start but to do something different its a hard call. We’ll see tomorrow. I’m glad to be going back. I had just enough time off to begin to feel the boredom creeping in. There was clarity too. A few days to reflect and to plan. I’m grateful to have a place to go tomorrow though, and that’s something that I should think more about. There’s been steady work now for three straight years and a place to get up and go and work and get paid. There’s been a sense of security, and that was lacking before that

I should be thinking more about gratitude in general. Making a gratitude list used to be part of my daily routine and it helped. Let’s think about that for tomorrow. Ten minutes a day to write a gratitude list paves the way for a generally good day. It’s a good reminder of why we get out of bed.

Speaking of which, someone sent me a message today to tell me that they are grateful for me and my continued presence in their life.

Wow.