I’m going to put something out here and it may be taken as morbid because there are some things that nobody wants to talk about, but I’m not being morbid.

If… just supposing… and I’m not asking if you want to, but if… if you knew you were to die today, could you say that you are leaving this mortal coil (so to speak) as the human being that you wish to be? This isn’t questioning if you’ve done everything you wished to do or achieved all your material goals. I’m asking if you believe you have become the person or even the sort of person that you desire to be. Supposing that there was another aside and it’s a place where you would be judged, how well do you think it would go for you? Bearing in mind that we are all our own worst critics, do you think you would be looked upon kindly by… whomever judges on this supposed other side?

Are you living now as however you would define a good or even decent human being?

I’ll go first.

I’m going to say mostly, and that’s not a cop-out. It’s just that there is always room for improvement. I’m going to say that I’m becoming that human being and if there is a day of judgment I might get a gold star for effort, but that’s because it’s almost daily effort to push aside the selfish, knee-jerk reactions born of hurting.

I’ll say mostly. I’m getting there. I have enough doubt though that I would prefer there to be no day of judgment.