It says this mix just posted up on Youtube yesterday but it feels to me like it comes from either the distant past or the distant future. Is it possible that time is circular, or maybe a sweeping arc where the future and the past are almost but never quite touching? I don’t know. It just all seems familiar but not familiar at the same time, like it’s from a time before memory or from a time that hasn’t happened yet.

I’m sitting around this morning pondering how nothing should really come as a surprise, and that we’d be able to see it coming if we only just looked. I’m thinking about responsibility and accountability, and maybe thinking about that old saying with an ounce of prevention. I’m thinking about how when we played hoops as kids and got called for a foul, we knew the right thing was just to raise our hand in front of the whole crowd and say, “Yessir, that was me. Mark it on the score sheet. I fucked up.” I’m not saying people don’t do that anymore. I don’t know if they do or they don’t. I don’t get out much. All I’m saying is that I need to get back to that for the benefit of my own dignity and for the other players in the game with me. Set an example. Do the right thing. I’m old enough by now to know better. I should know how to behave.

This mix though, not to break the train of thought… but this mix!

I’ve been so buried in my own life that I don’t know what’s going on outside the bunker. Is the war still going on? Is the ground and sky poisoned? What’s happening out there? Can someone fill me in? I think I need to know. I guess I could go out and see. Okay, I’m just going to do that then.